2nd Chance

Being given a second chance is never a good or bad thing. It has to depend on the person who has been given the second chance to prove that he/she has been given a second chance correctly. I had been pushing her away. Trying very hard not to see her very attempt to be the best girlfriend anyone can ever have.I keep saying i do not like being with her but everything she has done for me has been registered deep down in my heart. About two months ago we went our separate ways. But every time there is a problem or i am feeling down. She would be the very first person i would contact. I took her as my punching bag. I hurled verbal abuses at her whenever i was feeling down. She kept quiet. Only weeping when she hangs up her phone. I wanted her to forget me and i tired to move on. I do not want her to not be happy but by me leaving her had made the world come crashing down on her. I was foolish enough to think that leaving her was the best way out for her. I was wrong. If during the period of time of us being together i would have not rejected her feeling and not pushing her away, i might already be married to her having our own kids. Two weeks back we had a 6 hour conversation and i finally realize that i love her so very deeply. She meant so much to me. I do want to be with her and i am very sure of that. Now we are back together there are still issues but i am willing to do right all my wrongs and stop pushing her away. I want to love her the way i am suppose to no longer trying to make her leave me. Baby if you see this. I LOVE YOU.